Loneliness & Grad School

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Graduate school is not only one of the most challenging experiences you will ever face, but it can also be one of the most isolating as well. Over these past few weeks, this fact has never been more apparent to me. I have spent more time than I would ever like to admit in complete and utter solitude. Don’t get me wrong, between my assistantship, classes, and internship; I have more than enough on my plate to keep me busy. However, in those quiet moments when everything has settled down, I can’t deny the pang of loneliness I feel when realizing I have no missed calls, text messages or even an invitation to go out. The fact that I am also an extreme introvert has only served to make matters worse. I’m often torn between the desire of wanting to give myself the much needed time to relax and rejuvenate, and wanting to go out and have fun like everyone else my age.

The most frustrating part of this whole situation is the fact that people continually misinterpret or take offense to my introversion. They automatically assume that I’m standoffish or a snob, which only further serves to limit my interactions with others. In the end, it all just creates a vicious cycle of perpetual loneliness. In spite my desire to be more social at times, I have found that there are a few perks of being more on the reclusive side. For one, I have developed a deep and genuine sense of who I am as a person, and have the ability to make time for the things I love. Furthermore, being alone for the majority of my free time has forced me to learn to appreciate the simpler things in life.

However, on those lonely and slightly depressing days, here are some of the things I do to cheer myself up!

Reading// Reading has always been a personal escape for me. I can easily immerse myself in a good mystery novel or a classic romantic period drama. I recently discovered the lovely Penguin Classics Clothbound Editions and have shamelessly amassed quite the collection.

Movie// When I’m not binge watching my favorite shows on Netflix, I like to settle in with a sweet treat or glass of wine and watch a good movie. The movie Bridesmaids still makes me laugh uncontrollably, and I would also highly recommend Florence Foster Jenkins for anyone who has yet to see it. Meryl Streep and Hugh Grant….need I say more?!?

Pinning// Pinterest is another creative outlet for me and has basically become my giant vision board. I pin anything from recipes, outfits, grumpy cat memes, to my dream home (and wedding, Ahem…).

Praise & Worship// When the loneliness does become somewhat unbearable, I rely heavily on my faith to soothe and lift my spirits. I truly believe that God takes us through different seasons in life for a reason. In as difficult as it may be at times, I try to remain patient, trusting that he has something greater in store for me.

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